Responsibility

I think I am beginning to understand one of the main causes of the vulnerability of the medical profession to substance abuse and addiction.
Responsibility.
I have spent hours at home worrying about patients I have dealt with during the day, and nights tossing and turning, unable to stop dissecting out every little thing I did, looking for mistakes.
The worst thing about it is that I will never have as little responsibility for patients as I do now.

I am sure time and experience will help me overcome this.
I just hope it's before I get too comfortable in the arms of a substance that helps me ecsape.